I hate My Writing

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I think I may or may not be going through another bout of Writer’s Depression  and I hate. It makes me feel miserable and wonder why I write. I struggle with vanishing from social media and ive deleted a few Instragram accounts in the past for my author page. Then I have to start over with a new account and grow my followers again once the depression has lifted. And it’s not like I can just not write anymore otherwise I feel Writer’s Guilt. I hate being a writer. I hate that creatives, especially writers, are more prone to mental illness and depression. It’s great suffering being in your thoughts with negative self-talk. I feel like my shit sucks and I don’t know why I continue to write.

I also believe that when I blogged about 11 Things Ive Learned the Hard Way About Being an Indie Author & Finding Your Purpose/Gift I had been depressed. There was two other writer who read that post and it discouraged them from publishing. I want to say that it was more than likely own self-loathing talking when I posted it. I still feel awful about that.

I am currently working on this:

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 My fear is I wont be able to do justice to the powerful message.

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Althoug i’m no artistic genius I can relate to Van Gogh. 

I really hope you watch the 13 minute video below.  It’s a peek into the world of creatives dealing with depression,

There is also an impressive Hulu documentary on the life of Vincent van Gogh called Loving Vincent, 

” It is the first fully painted animated feature film.”-https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Loving_Vincent

And because i’m also a poet, I may also have the Slyvia Plath Effect

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My mother was/is a writer. My daughter is also a wonderful writer. My fear is that i’ve passed on that gene to her. She often go through phases of depression, announcing that she’s quit writing, then I’ll find her typing away on her laptop writing chapters to a new book.

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3 Bizarre but Interesting Movies I’ve Watched on Streaming Services This Year

As a writer and fan of scifi/fantasy and a big fan of Black Mirror, I’m always delighted  when I discover a bizzare movie on Hulu, Netflix, Amazon Prime, YouTube or whereever.  If you’re into odd movies like I am, you can thank me later. I wasn’t a big movie watcher in the past so you may have already heard of or seen these, as these aren’t new movies. 

So without further ado, let’s get right into it. I promise not to include any spoilers for those who haven’t seen any of these and wanna check it out.

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Release date: October 18, 2019

Running time: 100 minutes

The film had its world premiere at the 2019 Sundance Film Festival, as a shorter film, but was then released as a longer movie in theaters.( You can watch the original short Sundance version here.)

Very Brief Summary:

Ummm….this film is very hard to explain. Long story short: everyone wears braces in this small town, a woman gives away her baby on impulse to her friend, but then regrets it and her friend refuses to give the baby back, and a boy turns into a dog.



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Release date: December 22, 2017 

Running Time: 2h 15m

Very Brief Summary:

Imagine if you didnt have to work anymore and live a life of luxury. Only catch: being shrunken (think Honey, I shrunk the Kids but not as small as they were in that movie.) I’m pretty sure many of us would sign up. 

Well a married couple with financial problems decide to sign up to be small, but find out the downsides to being small. One more thing: The procedure is permanent.



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Release date: May 4, 2018 

Running Time: 1h 21m

Very Brief Summary:

Weird movie about a guy who joins a retreat because a woman he likes joined. Some weird stuff happens, such as all the retreaters vomiting up gremlin/furby-looking things. The creatures aren’t harmful and everyone kinda gets attached to them, until they start to get bigger. Someone dies in the movie but I won’t say who.


Let me know in the comments below if you’ve ever watched any of these bizarre movies or/and if you have any others I should check out.

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