Apotemnophilia/Body Integrity Identity Dysphoria (BIID)-The Desire to be Amputated

This post will be mainly videos from the views of those suffering with

APOTEMNOPHILIA

also known as

BODY INTEGRITY IDENTITY DYSPHORIA (BIID)

or even

BODY IDENTITY DYSPHORIA (BID)


Definition:

In short, BIID is the overwhelming desire to be disabled, which may or may not include a desire of being amputated. Some wish to be paralyzed and even blind. People who suffer from this feel a huge discomfort with being able-bodied and sometimes go through extreme measures to have their wishes come to fruition. People suffering with BIID are said to have had their desire starting from adolescence.

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The condition is said to be related to a condition called:

Somatoparaphrenia

which is said to be a delusion where someone denies ownership of their own limbs.


MY TIN FOIL HAT THEORY

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So I know that this is a mental illness. However, as a scifi writer and someone who is very open-minded, I believe that it’s possible that these people may have suffered some form of disability in their previous lives (past lives).

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Now go ahead an grab some popcorn before getting into these videos. As you will soon discover, BIID/BID is a truly interesting condition. Dont forget about what I’ve said about my past-life theory while you watch! 🙂

Check out the video below of a woman who purposely blinded herself because she’s always felt she should have been born blind.

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Sources:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Body_integrity_dysphoria
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Somatoparaphrenia
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Past_life_regression

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Body Dysmorphic Disorder (BDD)

According to studies, about 1 in 50 Americans suffer from Body Dysmorphic Disorder (also known as BDD or Body Dysmorphia). The thing about BDD is it’s important to be knowledgable about the difference between normal insecurities and BDD.


So then, what exactly is

Body Dysmorphic Disorder (BDD)?

Check out the video below by Dr. Tracey Marks


SYMPTOMS

symptoms

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TREATMENT

Cognitive Behavorial Therapy (individual or group)

Medication (serotonin reuptake inhibitors (SRIs)


*Sources:
https://bdd.iocdf.org/professionals/prevalence/
https://www.medicinenet.com/body_dysmorphic_disorder/article.htm
https://bdd.iocdf.org/about-bdd/how-is-bdd-treated/

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Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD)

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You may not be aware of the known links between sunlight and mental health. Not only does the sun help produce vitamin D, but it’s beneficial to our brain’s seratonin levels, which helps boost moods. This is especially important because a low level of seratonin can equal depression. (See Benefits of Sunlight)

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With that being said, sunlight or lack thereof is associated with Seasonal Affective Disorder, also known as, Seasonal Depression or SAD. It affects over

3 million Americans a year

and can trigger depression and mood disorders.


What is SAD?

SAD

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symptoms include:

Irritability

Sadness/depression

Change of appetite

Excessive sleep/ insomnia

Isolation

Loss of interest

Feelings of hopelessness


While some people thrive during the summer and are affected by SAD during the winter, there are those who suffer from the opposite.

Seasonal Depression can also occur during the summer

Although less common, this is often referred to as reverse Seasonal Affective Disorder, onset SAD, or Summer Depression

and affects

1 out of 10 people.

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Research shows that southern states of the US are affected more by reverse SAD than nothern states. This may be due to high heat temperature, which can be uncomfortable and agitating.

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TREATMENT

(FOR SAD & ONSET SAD)

  • Light Therapy:

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  • Antidepressants and Psychotherapy (talk therapy)

You can find these on Amazon or lightingandceilingfans.com

See Perfect Sunny Autumn Day for Walking, & the Benefits


Sources:
https://www.healthline.com/health/depression/benefits-sunlight
https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/seasonal-affective-disorder/symptoms-causes/syc-20364651
https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/brain-babble/201501/reverse-seasonal-affective-disorder-sad-in-the-summer
https://thatoregonlife.com/2017/10/natural-remedies-sad-seasonal-affective-disorder/
https://www.yogajournal.com/lifestyle/lighten-2

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Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)

Alas, the one post I’ve been dragging my feet on posting about

BPD

(also known as Emotional Dysregulation Disorder)

(Not to be confused with Bipolar Disorder, which is NOT a personality disorder. Bipolar disorder is a mood disorder.)

I want to apologize in advance on the multiple videos posted below. I wanted to include as many educational resources and references about the topic at hand.


What exactly is Borderline Personality Disoder?

I recommend listening to at least the first 10 minutes of the below video. Out of all the videos, I ‘ve found that Dr Ramani breaks down the traits and characteristics the best.

It is important to remember that not everyone suffering from BPD have the same characteristics or traits, as there is a spectrum. Not every individual with this disorder is “crazy”, violent, and obsessive as portrayed in media. Therefore not everyone with BPD are exactly alike. Also, only FIVE of the 9 criteria must be met to be diagnosed, which means not all suffering with BPD are suicidal or etc.

As always, it is recommended to not self-diagnose. Please seek a professional for a proper diagnosis.

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The Stigma of BPD

1. STIGMA ONLINE:

Borderline folks catch a lot of flack online. Just look through the many videos and comments on YouTube from disgruntled exes.

Men and women with BPD are often thought of as toxic, manipulative, and attention-seeking by some, when in fact, those with BPD feel love intensely and most have a fear of abandonment. Alot of times theyfeel a great sense of guilt whenever they do cause disruption. I wil admit that it does take a very patient person to be able to involve themselves romantically with someone with BPD. Of course this also depends on where the person with BPD falls on the spectrum and the traits they possess, as not all individuals are the same.

2. STIGMA IN HEALTHCARE SETTINGS

And if that isn’t bad enough, people with BPD are also discriminated against by mental health professionals

This is because they (people with BPD) are one of the hardest to treat because the disorder often misunderstood. In fact, not all therapist are willing to treat or understand enough about BPD. Those with BPD are often dropped as patients (see The Stigma Associated With Borderline Personality Disorder and Why Do Therapists Stigmatize People with Borderline? )

3. STIGMA IN HOLLYWOOD/FILMS

I’ve come to notice that alot of films based on a character with BPD are often exaggerated and doesn’t help the stigma already attached with BPD.

Such as:

Single White Female

Welcome to Me

A Thin Line Between Love & Hate

Crazy Ex-Girlfriend

As stated, not all individuals with the disorder have the same traits. Many cannot work and receive disability, while others are high-functioning.

The lack of knowledge is one reason why I recently published a fictional short story of a woman dating while secretly dealing with BPD. The story was written to help education and bring awareness.

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(Click here to hear a sample of the audiobook)


Common BPD jargon:

SPLITTING:

when someone sees someone as all good or all bad and no in between. Its the reason why people with BPD tend to idealize others or demonize other people out of the slightest of things.

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“FP”: FAVORITE PERSON

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TREATMENT

1. PSYCHOTHERAPY (Talk Therapy).….Seeking a mental health professional is recommended. Most professionals will suggest group therapy with others with BPD. Individual therapy is often long-term.

2. MEDICATION.....Depending on the severity/circumstances, medication can also be prescribed for emotion regulation.

3. AGING/TIME....For some, BPD may not a life-long disorder. Some are only affected for just several years, with the symptoms decreasing in intensity as they get older. The disorder mostly affects young women, but there are older men and women who are affected.

4. DBT Workbook (Dialectical Behavior Therapy Skills Workbook). DBT is considered one of the most effective methods for treating BPD. Some professionals use it for group therapy but the workbooks is also recommended for individual use and can be found at online retail stores like Amazon.


CONCLUSION

There is so much more that can be said about BPD that i’m sure was missed in this post such as mood swings, impulsiveness, dissociation, and etc.

If you or someone you know may be suffering from Borderline Personality Disorder, the best thing you can do is research. There are also online support groups on Facebook for not only those with BPD, but for loved ones of those with BPD, as loved ones are also often greatly affected. Some have admitted that being around those with BPD is like always walking on eggshells.

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Normal Grief vs Masked/ Delayed/& Prolonged Grief

When I was eleven my father died. I didn’t cry when my aunt broke the news to me, nor did I cry during the funeral. It wasn’t until I was in my mid 30s that I finally broke down and cried over my father’s death. However it wasn’t without consequences. One could even point out that my clinical depression (atypical) & trichotillomania, more than likely stemmed from what is referred to as Masked Grief.

Then there’s Delayed Grief.

Unlike delayed or masked grief, sufferers of Prolonged Grief Disorder “deal” with the loss head on, but not in the most healthy way. A great example of this may be the main character of the television series, Monk.

In this series, Adrian Monk, has a hard time letting go of his deceased wife, Trudy. Even after over 9 years, he refuses to take off his wedding ring, he keeps his late wife’s office intact (while still paying rent for it), he refuses to date, his coffee table is kept the same angle his wife would have it when she rested her feet on it, and much more. His loss of his wife has even magnified his OCD to the point where he has to see a shrink. There are even scenes where he hallucinates and have full conversations with Trudy.

Although the symptoms may not be as exact as those I’ve just stated, below are signs of one who may be suffering from prolonged grief disorder:

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Normal grief is defined as having 5 stages:

1. Denial & Isolation

2. Anger

3. Bargaining (“if only..”)

4. Depression

5. Acceptance

It is not always necessarily in the same order for everyone nor do everyone go tthrough all five.

As if grief alone isn’t difficult enough to deal with, grieving isnt as always cut & dry. In fact, there are various other types of grief that many people may not even be aware that they or someone they know may be dealing with.



Coping with Grief

Below are a few resources for coping with a loss:

How to deal with Grief when someone you love dies (Video)

1-800-273-8255

It is always recommended to speak with a professional or at least someone you can confide if you’re having thoughts of suicide or feelings of hopelessness .

Bereavement Groups and Online Resources



(Update: 10/28/19)

Rest in Power grandma


Writer’s Depression is REAL

We’ve all heard or read how the infamous Sylvia Plath stuck her head in an oven and committted suicide at the young age of thirty. (If you haven’t, click here) Plath suffered from clinical depression. We’ve also heard about other writers and creatives who suffer from depression. Many writers forget or may not even be aware that we’re more prone to writer’s depression.

My aim in blogging about this today is to ease and help cope with my own depressive state at this very moment.

Out of all creatives, those who write are more prone than any other type of creatives.

 

 

If you’re not a writer but know someone who is, check in on them from time to time. Even if they seem happy. A mental health check is pertinent to that writer because we tend to isolate ourselve for hours to day to weeks or months when creating. We’re also our own worse critic and even the slightest bad review on our work can set off doubt and self-loathing within ourself. 

So check on your fellow creatives..especially our young and teen writers.

If you or anyone you know are having thoughts of suidicide, there is help:

https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

You call or chat with someone using the above link.

Deaf or hard of hearing? tel:1-800-799-4889


Recommended read:

Amazon.com Review

In 1985 William Styron fell victim to a crippling and almost suicidal depression, the same illness that took the lives of Randall Jarrell, Primo Levi and Virginia Woolf. That Styron survived his descent into madness is something of a miracle. That he manages to convey its tortuous progression and his eventual recovery with such candor and precision makes Darkness Visible a rare feat of literature, a book that will arouse a shock of recognition even in those readers who have been spared the suffering it describes


This blog post is dedicated to the late Haitian blogger and writer, Kreyolicious.


References:
https://thoughtcatalog.com/cody-delistraty/2014/03/the-neurological-similarities-between-successful-writers-and-the-mentally-ill/

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